I'm sorry guys. I'm trying to keep my chin up. It's just not easy.
I miss Lafayette. I miss being around family. I miss the help and daily moral support that I got there. It was a distraction.
Even though we're very busy with life over here, it's just not the same. I understand that we're all in the same boat (other wives of deployed soldiers) and it IS nice to have little snippets of things to look forward to (dinner with a friend, lunch with the group), but really it's just not the same as the excitement of life when Phillip is home.
I wake up in the morning and try to find the strength to get through the day. I run around in the evenings like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to meet the needs of everyone here. And I go to bed exhausted at night. It truly does suck!
I want my husband home!!! I miss that man; I miss talking to him about what's gone on in our day, and about life in general. I miss everything about him.
Now, don't get me wrong and don't drop me like a hot potato because I'm having a pity-party. I do find reasons to smile. I am blessed with two wonderful kids; I am blessed with a whole lot, actually. I guess the perfectionist in me wants everything to just be okay, so that I don't have to be so tired and lonely...and so that I can keep every aspect of life fun for the kids.
Thanks for letting me vent.
J~
3 comments:
Vent away, my friend. That's what this blog and your readers are here for.
There's no need to apologize...you are entitled to vent all you want. And if you ever need anything, feel free to knock on my door and let me know. Ok?
Ahh, we share a few of the same feelings. I, too miss my Ry. Still trying to keep chin up over here as well...
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