I'm sorry guys. I'm trying to keep my chin up. It's just not easy.
I miss Lafayette. I miss being around family. I miss the help and daily moral support that I got there. It was a distraction.
Even though we're very busy with life over here, it's just not the same. I understand that we're all in the same boat (other wives of deployed soldiers) and it IS nice to have little snippets of things to look forward to (dinner with a friend, lunch with the group), but really it's just not the same as the excitement of life when Phillip is home.
I wake up in the morning and try to find the strength to get through the day. I run around in the evenings like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to meet the needs of everyone here. And I go to bed exhausted at night. It truly does suck!
I want my husband home!!! I miss that man; I miss talking to him about what's gone on in our day, and about life in general. I miss everything about him.
Now, don't get me wrong and don't drop me like a hot potato because I'm having a pity-party. I do find reasons to smile. I am blessed with two wonderful kids; I am blessed with a whole lot, actually. I guess the perfectionist in me wants everything to just be okay, so that I don't have to be so tired and lonely...and so that I can keep every aspect of life fun for the kids.
Thanks for letting me vent.